Sunday, September 15, 2013

Writing Exercise #13

I have really missed doing the exercises, so I'm going to try to get back into them again. I make no promises, however. This one came about mostly because a reviewer on my previous exercise at ff.net told me I should post more of them.

Prompt: Golden State's "All Roads Lead Home"
Fandom: Once Upon a Time
Character(s): Emma Swan, Snow White, Prince Charming

Set after Season 2, Episode 22: "And Straight On 'Til Morning"

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Your blood, your fire
Your kiss goodnight,
Your words and touch,
They might be mine.
 
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She'd called them Mom and Dad.

In the bleakest of moments, Emma Swan had called her parents Mom and Dad. In that moment, she hadn't wanted David and Mary Margaret. She hadn't even wanted Prince Charming and Snow White. In that moment, like a scared little girl, she had wanted – aw, hell, if she was being honest with herself, needed – Mom and Dad.

She'd opened a door that could never be closed. She'd let them behind her wall completely, let them hold her and try to comfort her as best they could. And if she was going to die, standing there with her parents' arms wrapped around her was how she wanted to go.

But, of course, they hadn't died. They hadn't died because she and Regina had accomplished the impossible. Emma had tapped into something within her that she didn't even understand and focused, like Gold had taught her, on saving her family.

And she had. With Regina's help, she'd saved her family. She'd saved everyone. For a second goddamned time.

But all the damn power she had wasn't enough to save Henry from the clutches of two people who … hell, Emma didn't even know what their deal was. Honestly, she didn't give a damn. All she wanted was her kid back.

So now here they were, Emma and her parents, their archenemy, a devilish imp, and a pirate captain with a hook for a hand, all headed to Neverland to rescue the one kid who connected them all.

A rescue mission, however, was still a long way off. Hook said it could take days to get to the island. Days! They didn't have days. Henry might not have days. She kept telling herself that it was good that they'd taken him. Good because if they'd wanted him dead, they wouldn't have taken him first. No, they wanted him for something, and whatever that something was, they wanted him alive.

That was good. Much better than the alternative, at any rate.

Not that, in the end, any of that mattered. She wanted her kid back, and she wanted her kid back safely. She just wanted to hold Henry in her arms, the same way her parents had held her back in the mines.

None of that could happen until they got him back, though, and it was hard to feel like she was doing something to help him when all she could do at the moment was sit on the deck of the Jolly Roger and stare out into the night.

She was so lost in thought that she didn't hear the two sets of soft footsteps approaching her. She gasped when a gentle hand slid onto her shoulder. Startled, she looked up to find both her parents crouching beside her. She reached up to pat her mother's hand on her shoulder before returning her attention to the Neverland night.

Without a single word, her parents took seats next to her against the rail, her mother on the left and her father on the right. For a long moment, they just sat there on the deck, Emma watching the sky and her parents watching Emma.

And then David tentatively wrapped his arm around her shoulders and whispered, “We'll find him, Emma. This family always finds each other.”

With that, the dam broke. Tears welled in Emma's eyes, and when she felt her father tighten his grip, her careful resolve crumbled. Just like in the mines, her walls were gone, and all she wanted was Mom and Dad.

Snow and Charming reacted in an instant, Snow gripping her hand and squeezing and Charming holding her tighter. “Let it out, sweetheart,” Snow whispered.

The pet name was ultimately too much, and Emma finally let go, crying tears she'd needed to cry for twenty-nine years. Tears for Henry and Neal. Tears of longing and despair and injustice. Tears for the love lost and time stolen. Snow White was born to be a mother. Prince Charming was born to be a father. These people would have been fantastic parents, and they should have been hers.

Their blood ran through her veins. She had their spirit and their fight. As Gold had once said, she had her mother's chin and her father's tact. At the time, she'd been a little embarrassed, but now … now she was damn proud of it.

Stirring somewhere inside her was the Emma Swan who'd first come to Storybrooke, the Emma who wouldn't have been caught dead crying in anyone's arms, let alone David Nolan's and Mary Margaret Blanchard's. But after everything she'd been through, Emma needed her parents She needed their comfort, needed their help to not give up, to not surrender. She needed their optimism and she needed to hear them say that everything would work out all right in the end.

And that was exactly what Snow was whispering now, that they would find Henry. That everything would be okay.

Eventually the tears began to dry up but it wasn't until Emma shifted in her parents' arms that they let her go. No one said a word, but Snow gave her a little smile, drying Emma's wet cheeks with her thumb the way she had done in the nursery. David pressed another kiss to the side of her head, and once again, Emma closed her eyes against it for a brief moment, allowing her father's comfort to sink in.

“We will find him, Emma,” he said, trying not to sound surprised when Emma snuggled closer and rested her head on his shoulder. He once again wrapped his arm around her and gently ran his hand up and down her upper arm. “We'll find him, and then we'll take him home.”

A now thoroughly exhausted Emma could only nod. The night was still now except for the lapping of the waves against the hull of the Roger. After a few minutes, David shifted position, taking Emma with him so they were leaning more comfortably against the rail of the ship. Emma reached for her mother's hand, gripped it tightly in her own, and allowed her eyes to close as both her parents soothed her.

In that moment, she realized that after a very long, trying, and lonely road, she, too, had finally come home.

Monday, September 02, 2013

Writing Exercise #12

I'm back with a writing exercise! In the intervening months, I have been writing constantly, though nearly all of it is fanfic. As is this exercise, by the way, so let's get to it!

Prompt: Goo Goo Dolls' "Let Love In"
Fandom: Once Upon a Time
Character(s): Snow White, Emma Swan

Set after Season 2, Episode 3: "Lady of the Lake"

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The only way to feel again is let love in.

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Snow White should have been able to tell that her daughter was nearing a breaking point, but she hadn't. She'd been so wrapped up in her own emotion, standing in the nursery where she should have spent years with her baby, that her grown-up baby's tension hadn't registered with her. She'd been so lost in the maybes and what ifs and what should have beens that she hadn't seen how hard Emma was fighting against her own barrage of maybes and what ifs and what should have beens.

They should have had so much. They should have had love and time and little-kid cuddles and teenage snits. They should have had everything, and Snow had missed it all. Emma's first words, first steps, first haircut, first Christmas, first everything. Her precious baby girl had grown up in the blink of an eye, and she'd grown up so utterly alone.

Emma was angry, and quite frankly, Snow couldn't blame her. Snow was angry, too. Angry with Regina for casting that horrible curse, angry with the world for what it took from her. But Emma's anger … that hurt the most because Emma's anger was directed at Snow.

Emma could have the subtlety of a Mack truck when she wanted. She hadn't come right out and said that she was angry, but she'd done everything but. She'd argued and disobeyed and outright defied instruction and tried, in every single possible way she could, to let Snow that she did not need her.

The only thing was that she did need her, whether she wanted to admit it or not. Snow knew Emma was a survivor, and she knew she'd get the hang of the Enchanted Forest way of life in her own time, but underneath all her bluster, Emma Swan was a hurt little girl who was lashing out at the only person she could. A hurt little girl who wanted to be comforted but didn't want to want to be comforted and didn't know how to ask for it even if she did.

All she had to do was wait for Emma to get it all out of her system. Once the righteous anger was gone, Emma would be able to feel what she wanted – and desperately needed – to feel. But not until then.

One thing having to survive on her own had taught her was patience, so Snow had decided to settle in for the wait.

And yet, the moment Emma let her wall down still took her by surprise. Emma admitted being angry and not understanding and then … then her baby girl admitted she wasn't used to someone putting her first, and Snow could not stop herself from stepping over and wrapping her in a hug.

And when Emma squeezed back, for the first time in years, everything felt right.

Emma had taken the first step. She'd let Snow in. And Snow was determined not to let her baby girl down again.

Now she sat against the trunk of a tree at the edge of their campsite on watch. Emma was supposed to be on watch, too, but she'd nodded off a little while ago and Snow hadn't had the heart to wake her. And when Emma had snuggled into her side, unconsciously seeking warmth and comfort … well, Snow's heart had pretty much exploded with joy.

“Mary Margaret?” a groggy voice asked, drawing her from her reverie.

She looked down to find Emma blearily blinking up at her in the firelight. “Shh,” she whispered. “Go back to sleep.”

“M'supposed to be on watch with you,” Emma murmured but her eyes were already sliding closed again.

“I've got it. Just go back to sleep.”

She started to shake her head in protest but eventually slumped further against her mother as sleep overtook her.

Snow smiled and, after taking a breath, chanced pressing a kiss on the top of her baby girl's head. “I love you, sweetheart.”

She would never be certain whether she really heard it or whether it was a trick of the wind against her ears, but she could have sworn she heard Emma whisper, “Love you, too.”